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"Transformation"
There's odd satisfaction to seeing people scavenge stuff piled on my tree lawn for garbage pick up. I felt I should run out and say it's all been contaminated with mouse poop and mold, but it rained. Nature protected them by washing it. I was also tempted to ask somebody to help me carry out bigger pieces of furniture, but I was tired. Maybe next week?
I've been trying to transform my basement, but it's a slow go since I'm very sensitive to whatever lurks down there. I suspect the worst culprit is mold I found on the rafters once the mouse poop ceiling came down. My eyes have been red and swollen. My tip for the week is to put used teabags on them to suck out the evil spirits.
When not washing rafters (spiking my delicate hands with a nail and splinters), I've been washing endless basement stuff. There's a lot of it. You wouldn't know it to walk through the main part of my house, but I collect and hoard things. For instance, 8 teapots -- and I never use a teapot. They're just pretty. One was Grandma's. I can't get rid of a Grandma thing, even if it's contaminated with mouse poop and mold dust. I carefully washed it and packed it nicely in a new box. Some of the others have unpleasant memories attached though. I'm debating whether or not to start selling things.
I've also continued to try to transform myself by plodding along on my latest art therapy painting. This latest has been dragging, but it is accomplishing its purpose. Slowing down and really thinking about a hard period of my past helps me see things differently. I can see positives. I can sew negatives together in a different way.
I think most of us create a shorthand in our minds about the past. For instance, my ex-husband is a narcissist. He hurt my self-esteem. Bad husband. Slam the door on the past. The painting isn't about him, but I can't think about that period of time without remembering the part he played, and throwing out the mental shorthand, really spending time thinking through things, I discover new truths that I can actually feel in my body. Fiddling with the painting layout, I actually laughed when I came up with a moment of gratitude towards him. I didn't think it was possible.
We can't ignore the past. We carry it around all the time, even when we refuse to acknowledge it. It effects our decisions and behavior. It creates who we are now. It becomes our choice what we're going to do with it.
We can't change the past, but we can change the narrative. The fact that this painting is taking me a long time to create is an indication of how complicated the issue is for me. It gives me something to think about when I'm washing rafters and dishes. And like cleaning physical things, I feel like I'm scrubbing my mind. I think I'll be a lot happier when all the mold and mouse poop is gone, really and metaphorically.
BTW, the keys are just a part of the painting. I'll post the whole thing if it ever gets finished.
"Adding wings to caterpillars does not create butterflies, it creates awkward and dysfunctional caterpillars. Butterflies are created through transformation."~ Stephanie Marshall
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